Whoa, it's been more than a year since the last time i came here :) It seems like yesterday, but well, from that "yesterday" comes a lot of memories.. Enough about yesterday, I want to express my "TODAY".
Have you ever tried the feeling of doing something that you think is right? or at the very least, that's what you think and feel. Any body who could ever help me figure out how something so wrong feel so right all along.
I really don't know how to handle this crap I'm in and the truth is I can't undo it anymore. (lol) I was pressured heavily, because of that, I was suddenly robbed by my ability to think... And the next thing I know, I'm holding this piece of dirt which I can't wash off now or ever. It's funny but it's true.
Maybe that's what pressure does, lure you into doing something which you didn't thought you could do that time. How I wish pressure attacks only when needed. Sad part, the sweet memory of what I did is like a ghost haunting me, or a shadow on my side. But I see a little hope in here, because ghosts, only come at night, and shadows, oh geeez, only when the sun is present. Good thing my conscience (which they call the id) shows not much of a regret, but rather a lesson and when the same pressure attacks me, all I have to do is just to laugh it out :))
