Affected

I really am upset. I hate it so much when people talk behind my back, and then they will start accusing me about things which I didn't made. Ok I admit I made a mistake, but for real, I didn't wanted these things to happen, and weather they will believe me or not, it had not been easy for me to deal with this. I could not believe they could do these, they are my friends, or shall I say they were! Urrrghh :(( I don't usually react this much in situations like this, and I don't even get affected, but this is way different because those people who accused me are close to my heart! Ok, I give up, I know I am a big failure, but I can't help it because I'm just a human being. I am not perfect, and I just can't. I am badly hurt! I will just keep on praying for them, (that's the most wise respond in my mind for now) I wish they will stop doing it to me because the more they do, the more it hurts. They don't really have to slam it in my face and tell me that I am a big mistake in this world. =((

I want a total reformat of my brain, I want to erase all my memories and all the people who hurt me. EVERYONE! :((

nahhhhh =((