Song of Songs 8:4

You might be wondering what's my title all about, but it is what God told me a month ago, when I was asking for His guidance in making a very important decision. It took me a month before I understood what my God is trying to say. I was hurt so much , and I felt so rejected. During those times, I say "I am Ok", but deep inside I am not. I had sleepless and crying nights, and it had been so agonizing. I feel so unloved by every one. I even find it hard to talk with the people around me, to deal with my family or even to hear God's voice because I've been clouded so much from the pain that I felt that time. I cried and cried to Jesus and I kept on begging Him to release me from the bondage of pain that I had. Until such time, my long prayer have been answered. I found inner healing and peace from the Lord. I thank Him so much for dealing with me, and everything I've been through was not in vain. Now, I clearly understood why I undergone a long suffering and trial because God is making me ready for a promotion. I thank the Lord so much for that. I learned to consider it pure joy whenever I face trials of many kind (James1:3). God has made it clear to me that He called me for greater things and He is just preserving my life, just like what my favorite verse says in Jeremiah 29:11. God's touch is way too different from the touch of others. His love is immeasurable and non can compare to it. I praise the Lord God almighty for everything, I thank Him for the healing, peace, and love that He showered upon me. I am more equipped now, and my back is more stronger to carry a heavier load. I am so sure that I can make it for the next coming days of my life as long as my God will be with me, but whats more certain is that He will never leave me nor forsake me. To God be the glory!

To end it up, I learned a very sweet lesson . . . I am still waiting but this time I am so sure that I am waiting not to him, but to the Lord. I commit everything in God's hands :) I still have this strong feelings for him, but if it's us, then it will be in God's perfect time, maybe five or ten years from now. So i promise to be true to God, to live my life in purity as unto Him, waiting for the day when I hear Him say, "here is the one, I have created just for you" hahah. [I promise by Jaci Velasquez, singer nako!!] bitaw, I will work on the commitment I have with my self to focus on my studies and more importantly in glorifying my Father in heaven. There is always a time for everything.

In my defense, I never had any relationship with any one since February 3,1993 but I meet someone who could seriously take my focus in my studies, hahaha, that's why every body thinks it's "us" but they were so WRONG!

Wonder Mom

I can always boast and shout out loud that God gave me the best mom ever. She has always been there for us, she loves us unconditionally and without having second thoughts she supply all our needs. She can always distinguish what we feel and she is so sure that she knows us by heart. Her arms are always open when we needed a hug. Her heart understood when we needed a friend. Her gentles eyes were stern when we needed a lesson. Her strength and love has guided us and gave us wings to fly. Not to mention the sacrifices she had in order for us to feel comfortable. She wakes up even before the sun rise, and prepares food for us. She doesn't care how hard her job is, as long as we are her motivation in doing so. I couldn't ask for more to Lord, but to shower my mom with bountiful blessings. I pray that God will fill her with so much love and care. May she be successful, as she has always been, in everything she does. I love her so much and I am so sure I wouldn't trade her for anything in this world.

So this mother's day I say, "I honor my mother".

[I salute all the moms in the world, because with out them, there would be no children]

i feel so proud of my self, I greeted the mother of my significant other. hahah. I'm the best. If i didn't made it I would surely kill my self, because indeed I am so thankful to his mom for bearing a wonderful baby like him

District Youth Camp

Just got home from a five days NORCEMIN DISTRICT youth camp [May 3-7] at Noah's Ark Tablon, Cagayan de Oro City. I really am blessed, renewed and on fire with God :) We almost had one thousand campers from all over the north central district :) I had so much fun. I really am blessed in all aspects. I meet a lot of people and some old friends from the previous camps, it was totally amazing. More over, the speakers are really wonderful, a true man of God. We had Rev. Sur del Rosario, the national director of the A/G Youth, Rev. Elpie Taboclaon, the Section Superintendent, and Rev. Herbert Aris of F Gen. [Free Generation Church]. I soo love the way he preached, with matching drama², and not to mention the looks and outfits. hahaha..

I learned a lot of things, but as what Ptr. H has seriously stressed out, we went there not to learn but to change :) I really am blessed, and now I am once again changed for the better and for glorifying my Father in Heaven. I am just so amazed how God has really called me for full time ministry. The calling was now confirmed, and clearer than ever. True that there is no higher calling nor greater honor than to serve the Lord. I will make sure that God will make use of my life and He will be pleased with me. To God be the glory! The major things that awakened me much, is when how God wants me to be serious with serving Him, how He wants me to prosper and how He had chosen and called me for a full time ministry. I am so glad. And no words can utter how thankful am I to the Lord. Through faith I see my self somewhere in the future, and I am looking much better than I'm looking right now.

But you see, I am not just change emotionally or spiritually, I am also changed physically, ug sadihang gi tubuan nko ug wisdom tooth, and right now it is hurting :( I can't believe I am experiencing the agony of little kids while having some tooth developments. hahah. So cool :))

Offcially Missing you (Lyrics)

May

It's already May, and this is my first blog for this month :) I can't believe time flies too fast! Good thing I now only have five more months to go. I didn't noticed the time. It seems yesterday when I've been through all those hardships. I thank God for making me strong, and for helping me to press on, if not for Him, I wouldn't make it. God is so great! :) But I'm not saying i'm done with those, [haha] actually I am still having these sleepless nights.

It's really agonizing, when you've got nothing else to do but to cry and pray so hard for the things you couldn't change, or for missing a person which isn't there. It hurts even more when you want to do something but you simply can't.

But despite all, I thank Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior for helping me deal with all my unpleasant feelings. To God Be the Glory :)