You might be wondering what's my title all about, but it is what God told me a month ago, when I was asking for His guidance in making a very important decision. It took me a month before I understood what my God is trying to say. I was hurt so much , and I felt so rejected. During those times, I say "I am Ok", but deep inside I am not. I had sleepless and crying nights, and it had been so agonizing. I feel so unloved by every one. I even find it hard to talk with the people around me, to deal with my family or even to hear God's voice because I've been clouded so much from the pain that I felt that time. I cried and cried to Jesus and I kept on begging Him to release me from the bondage of pain that I had. Until such time, my long prayer have been answered. I found inner healing and peace from the Lord. I thank Him so much for dealing with me, and everything I've been through was not in vain. Now, I clearly understood why I undergone a long suffering and trial because God is making me ready for a promotion. I thank the Lord so much for that. I learned to consider it pure joy whenever I face trials of many kind (James1:3). God has made it clear to me that He called me for greater things and He is just preserving my life, just like what my favorite verse says in Jeremiah 29:11. God's touch is way too different from the touch of others. His love is immeasurable and non can compare to it. I praise the Lord God almighty for everything, I thank Him for the healing, peace, and love that He showered upon me. I am more equipped now, and my back is more stronger to carry a heavier load. I am so sure that I can make it for the next coming days of my life as long as my God will be with me, but whats more certain is that He will never leave me nor forsake me. To God be the glory!
To end it up, I learned a very sweet lesson . . . I am still waiting but this time I am so sure that I am waiting not to him, but to the Lord. I commit everything in God's hands :) I still have this strong feelings for him, but if it's us, then it will be in God's perfect time, maybe five or ten years from now. So i promise to be true to God, to live my life in purity as unto Him, waiting for the day when I hear Him say, "here is the one, I have created just for you" hahah. [I promise by Jaci Velasquez, singer nako!!] bitaw, I will work on the commitment I have with my self to focus on my studies and more importantly in glorifying my Father in heaven. There is always a time for everything.
In my defense, I never had any relationship with any one since February 3,1993 but I meet someone who could seriously take my focus in my studies, hahaha, that's why every body thinks it's "us" but they were so WRONG!
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