The First Ever Christ Faith Fellowship National Youth Leadership Summit
Monty Plummer
Ptr. Rod Plummer teaching us how to win arrows!! Glory to God
We are overly blessed to have Ptr. Rod Plummer and Monty Plummer as speakers for the 3-DAY National Youth Leadership Summit. It was all fun and a life changing experience. Met a lot of old friends and new youth leaders all over Philippines. Thank God i was able to volunteer in the working committee, it was tiring yet rewarding. Everyone enjoyed the long draining travel. The "hakot" part was the most difficult, planning had been heavy and busy but knowing that more than a hundred young people went home blessed, equipped, and empowered to serve our Lord, it was all worth it. The attendees were not much but it was a good number for a start. From the venue, food, accommodation, down to the sessions, it was nothing but AWESOME.
Friday, October 12, 2012
My summer had been super stressful, yet fun. I was just too bothered by the things, "different" things that has been going on in my mind, influenced by the surroundings, and manipulated by the people around me. Its funny (or sad) when you have these things in life, which you are sure it can make you lively (or happy), and you think you have it in your hands then suddenly it's gone. It's like you have been given a glimpse of heaven, then your back to reality again. [sigh]. Despite all, I still super thank God, because His timings are just . . . in time. Of course that's my God. What else can I say.
I was walking down life's highway a long time ago. One day I saw a sign that read "Heaven's Grocery Store". As I got a little closer, the door came open wide. When I came to myself, I was standing just inside. I saw a host of angels. They were standing everywhere. One handed me a basket and said, "My child, please shop with care". Everything a Christian needed was in that Grocery Store. All you couldn't carry, you could come back the next day for. First, I got some PATIENCE; LOVE was in the very same row. Further down was UNDERSTANDING, you needed it wherever you go. I got a box or two of WISDOM, a bag or two of FAITH. I just couldn't miss the HOLY SPIRIT, for He was all over the place!! I stopped to get some STRENGTH and COURAGE to help me run this race. By then my basket was getting full but...I remembered I needed some GRACE! I didn't forget SALVATION, for SALVATION was free. So I tried to get enough of that to save both you and me. Then I started up to the counter to pay my grocery bill, for I thought I had everything to do my Master's will. As I wind up the aisle I saw PRAYER and I just had to put that in. For I knew when I stepped outside, I would run right into sin. PEACE and JOY were plentiful; they were on the last shelf. SONGS and PRAISES were hanging near, so I just helped myself. Then I said to the angel, "How much do I owe?" He just smiled and said, "Just take them everywhere you go." Again I smiled at him and said, "How much do I owe?" He smiled again and said......
The movie was very inspiring and heart whelming. Before I go through the details, I would like to express my inmost congratulations to the makers of the film and to its director Mr. Ceasar Evangelista Buendia for creating such a wonderful movie. The movie is an eye-opener to the real things that is going on in our society today, specially the corrupt motive and selfish desire of power and authority by the politicians. The movie is mainly about our Faith in God.
It’s true that sometimes we ought to question God’s existence, especially when things around us seem unreasonable, wicked or meaningless. The poverty around us, violence in different places, and the natural calamities that had happened, or even the unfulfilled promises of politicians makes us forget of our loving and graceful God.
We Filipinos dream of having a leader in our nation who would be able to stop all the bribery in the government so that we may become progressive. I know deep in my heart that it is everyone’s desire. But through the years, our leaders in the government have always been the same. We almost lose hope. But I was deeply touched and encouraged to take part in making a difference in the current situation of our country. Long before, we believed that the change will start from us, through us, and in us. But then we are reminded through that film that only God can change a nation or even a person. We have to ask forgiveness from God first and seek His glory, according to 2 Chronicles 7:14 it says there “if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” It is a wonderful promise from our Lord and we should start doing these in our selves. I was deeply struck when the director of the film one’s said, let us not make Christianity be just an item we fill-in in our biodata, but it should be in our action, deeds, and way of living. Before I end up, I would like to push everyone to ignite that passion in their heart to serve God and do His will. Do the right things, step up, touch lives, encourage individuals, and make a difference for God’s Glory.
Whoa, it's been more than a year since the last time i came here :) It seems like yesterday, but well, from that "yesterday" comes a lot of memories.. Enough about yesterday, I want to express my "TODAY".
Have you ever tried the feeling of doing something that you think is right? or at the very least, that's what you think and feel. Any body who could ever help me figure out how something so wrong feel so right all along.
I really don't know how to handle this crap I'm in and the truth is I can't undo it anymore. (lol) I was pressured heavily, because of that, I was suddenly robbed by my ability to think... And the next thing I know, I'm holding this piece of dirt which I can't wash off now or ever. It's funny but it's true.
Maybe that's what pressure does, lure you into doing something which you didn't thought you could do that time. How I wish pressure attacks only when needed. Sad part, the sweet memory of what I did is like a ghost haunting me, or a shadow on my side. But I see a little hope in here, because ghosts, only come at night, and shadows, oh geeez, only when the sun is present. Good thing my conscience (which they call the id) shows not much of a regret, but rather a lesson and when the same pressure attacks me, all I have to do is just to laugh it out :))
It has been four months since the last time I visited here. Wow, it's amazing how time flies too fast :) It's already September and a lot had happen in my life for the past four months. Unfortunately I was not able to share it here because of some PC reasons :(( Thanks to our school for the free internet access. Oh, I mean new school. I Almost forgot, I am now studying at the University of San Jose Recoletos, everything is new here, new environment, new set of classmates, new set of teachers, and new course.Guess what, I am now taking up BS Management Accounting. I already waved good bye to Psychology.I will be writing the new details of my life next time, but for now, I really have to go :) I miss blogging!
You might be wondering what's my title all about, but it is what God told me a month ago, when I was asking for His guidance in making a very important decision. It took me a month before I understood what my God is trying to say. I was hurt so much , and I felt so rejected. During those times, I say "I am Ok", but deep inside I am not. I had sleepless and crying nights, and it had been so agonizing. I feel so unloved by every one. I even find it hard to talk with the people around me, to deal with my family or even to hear God's voice because I've been clouded so much from the pain that I felt that time. I cried and cried to Jesus and I kept on begging Him to release me from the bondage of pain that I had. Until such time, my long prayer have been answered. I found inner healing and peace from the Lord. I thank Him so much for dealing with me, and everything I've been through was not in vain. Now, I clearly understood why I undergone a long suffering and trial because God is making me ready for a promotion. I thank the Lord so much for that. I learned to consider it pure joy whenever I face trials of many kind (James1:3). God has made it clear to me that He called me for greater things and He is just preserving my life, just like what my favorite verse says in Jeremiah 29:11. God's touch is way too different from the touch of others. His love is immeasurable and non can compare to it. I praise the Lord God almighty for everything, I thank Him for the healing, peace, and love that He showered upon me. I am more equipped now, and my back is more stronger to carry a heavier load. I am so sure that I can make it for the next coming days of my life as long as my God will be with me, but whats more certain is that He will never leave me nor forsake me. To God be the glory!
To end it up, I learned a very sweet lesson . . . I am still waiting but this time I am so sure that I am waiting not to him, but to the Lord. I commit everything in God's hands :) I still have this strong feelings for him, but if it's us, then it will be in God's perfect time, maybe five or ten years from now. So i promise to be true to God, to live my life in purity as unto Him, waiting for the day when I hear Him say, "here is the one, I have created just for you" hahah. [I promise by Jaci Velasquez, singer nako!!] bitaw, I will work on the commitment I have with my self to focus on my studies and more importantly in glorifying my Father in heaven. There is always a time for everything.
In my defense, I never had any relationship with any one since February 3,1993 but I meet someone who could seriously take my focus in my studies, hahaha, that's why every body thinks it's "us" but they were so WRONG!
I can always boast and shout out loud that God gave me the best mom ever. She has always been there for us, she loves us unconditionally and without having second thoughts she supply all our needs. She can always distinguish what we feel and she is so sure that she knows us by heart. Her arms are always open when we needed a hug. Her heart understood when we needed a friend. Her gentles eyes were stern when we needed a lesson. Her strength and love has guided us and gave us wings to fly. Not to mention the sacrifices she had in order for us to feel comfortable. She wakes up even before the sun rise, and prepares food for us. She doesn't care how hard her job is, as long as we are her motivation in doing so. I couldn't ask for more to Lord, but to shower my mom with bountiful blessings. I pray that God will fill her with so much love and care. May she be successful, as she has always been, in everything she does. I love her so much and I am so sure I wouldn't trade her for anything in this world.
So this mother's day I say, "I honor my mother".
[I salute all the moms in the world, because with out them, there would be no children]
i feel so proud of my self, I greeted the mother of my significant other. hahah. I'm the best. If i didn't made it I would surely kill my self, because indeed I am so thankful to his mom for bearing a wonderful baby like him
Just got home from a five days NORCEMIN DISTRICT youth camp [May 3-7] at Noah's Ark Tablon, Cagayan de Oro City. I really am blessed, renewed and on fire with God :) We almost had one thousand campers from all over the north central district :) I had so much fun. I really am blessed in all aspects. I meet a lot of people and some old friends from the previous camps, it was totally amazing. More over, the speakers are really wonderful, a true man of God. We had Rev. Sur del Rosario, the national director of the A/G Youth, Rev. Elpie Taboclaon, the Section Superintendent, and Rev. Herbert Aris of F Gen. [Free Generation Church]. I soo love the way he preached, with matching drama², and not to mention the looks and outfits. hahaha..
I learned a lot of things, but as what Ptr. H has seriously stressed out, we went there not to learn but to change :) I really am blessed, and now I am once again changed for the better and for glorifying my Father in Heaven. I am just so amazed how God has really called me for full time ministry. The calling was now confirmed, and clearer than ever. True that there is no higher calling nor greater honor than to serve the Lord. I will make sure that God will make use of my life and He will be pleased with me. To God be the glory! The major things that awakened me much, is when how God wants me to be serious with serving Him, how He wants me to prosper and how He had chosen and called me for a full time ministry. I am so glad. And no words can utter how thankful am I to the Lord. Through faith I see my self somewhere in the future, and I am looking much better than I'm looking right now.
But you see, I am not just change emotionally or spiritually, I am also changed physically, ug sadihang gi tubuan nko ug wisdom tooth, and right now it is hurting :( I can't believe I am experiencing the agony of little kids while having some tooth developments. hahah. So cool :))
It's already May, and this is my first blog for this month :) I can't believe time flies too fast! Good thing I now only have five more months to go. I didn't noticed the time. It seems yesterday when I've been through all those hardships. I thank God for making me strong, and for helping me to press on, if not for Him, I wouldn't make it. God is so great! :) But I'm not saying i'm done with those, [haha] actually I am still having these sleepless nights.
It's really agonizing, when you've got nothing else to do but to cry and pray so hard for the things you couldn't change, or for missing a person which isn't there. It hurts even more when you want to do something but you simply can't.
But despite all, I thank Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior for helping me deal with all my unpleasant feelings. To God Be the Glory :)
Last night when I was in bed, I was thinking of a very wonderful song that would best express what I feel right now. I even planned to write the lyrics here, but surprisingly, somebody wrote it already for me. Hahaha. I can't believe that somebody was thinking of that song as well. It now came in to my mind that maybe, just maybe, though we don't have the communication our senses still communicate and that we still have these perceptions talking unconsciously. Hahahaha!. Sounds weird. No, that's not real! But I was just so amazed with the idea of having the same music in our mind. Seriously I was so shocked when I noticed he wrote that song as well. I have no idea. I was planning to surprise him a song number, that very same song he had. Too bad I can't sing a song anymore for him today. hehehe :) I'll just stick to the Barbie song then for now until I think of something better :)
[FYI, nothing changes, && I still smile when I think of you.. I am holding on, waiting patiently]
Just got home from the thanks giving/birthday party:) And the food was totally amazing. Hahaha. The celebrant is the son of my mother's colleague & family friend, who just graduated from his bachelor's degree in secondary education major in biology. The son along his legal age, turns out to be soooo single and he is being pressured by the people around him. What's astonishing is that there is this one of the guest, and actually a friend of mom's, who keeps on bubbling to some other guests. Along there busy talks, she even talked to the mother of the celebrant together with my mother and the rest of the gang, and with no idea, they have been pairing me to the celebrant the whole time. They have this idea that I could be the perfect pair for the boy, because they think I'm a good girl, pretty and smart. OMG. that is soo crazy. hahaha. I just smiled and laugh! That's impossible for now. I already have my own thoughts and own feelings, and at this moment, I have a very sure feeling for some one :) I just don't know why this some one, or what I saw on him, but it's him. hahaha. for now. (though he is far, far literally and from reality) I don't know what lies ahead and what's the plan of God. Basta, I'm committing everything into His hands. I don't think much about it though because I'm still too young.
Along the way, I was just wondering, what will I become after four years. Will I ever earn a degree? Will I ever be a licensed psychologist, or CPA? ahaha, I can't believe I'm saying this. I am not so sure for now about what to do for the next semester, all I know is that I want to Honor God, serve Him, and bring glory to His name. And as always, I wanna make my mom happy and proud of me=) love her so much :)
I really am upset. I hate it so much when people talk behind my back, and then they will start accusing me about things which I didn't made. Ok I admit I made a mistake, but for real, I didn't wanted these things to happen, and weather they will believe me or not, it had not been easy for me to deal with this. I could not believe they could do these, they are my friends, or shall I say they were! Urrrghh :(( I don't usually react this much in situations like this, and I don't even get affected, but this is way different because those people who accused me are close to my heart! Ok, I give up, I know I am a big failure, but I can't help it because I'm just a human being. I am not perfect, and I just can't. I am badly hurt! I will just keep on praying for them, (that's the most wise respond in my mind for now) I wish they will stop doing it to me because the more they do, the more it hurts. They don't really have to slam it in my face and tell me that I am a big mistake in this world. =((
I want a total reformat of my brain, I want to erase all my memories and all the people who hurt me. EVERYONE! :((
Remember the song I told you the last time we talked? hahaha, here, I don't know how to post videos so I hope this one works :)) Gikan sa barbie nga movie bah! Mga girls gnahan biya ug barbie, mga baby girls, and I know your one of 'em :)) haha.lol. super super u u u u
Woaah, it's almost a week since 'you know' :( but I thank God because I know am getting stronger each day, certainly it's because of God's grace and blessings =)
Iv'e been addicted to movies lately, and books :) hehe, sila akong "bestfriends" for now. I never go out of the house, unless I go to church for fellowships! And the youth fellowship last Saturday was amazing. SALAMAT LORD! :) By the way, I have this book that I have been reading for days now, and I am really fascinated by the main character of the story, I admired him so much because of his courage. But it was just in the middle part when I'm almost done reading that I discovered his name, hahah, ug sadihang Santiago.. I was really laughing tremendously, because out of millions of names, kato pjd, hahaha. Ohhhhkay, my week end went fine, I spent most of it at the church, and meetings with the youth. It was really fantastic, except for the fact that I miss my friend so much. I am so thankful because my friend is blogging already hahahah, at least I will have the idea of anything that's going on with my friend's life. [modern npod kah, I seriously hope you will keep on blogging because this can be tiring sometimes, you don't have to write everyday, you can have it once a week :) hehehe!]
Today's officially the second or third day, hahah! I lost count. Told you, I'm not good at math! Well, I started my day by waking up 7:30 a.m., then I prepared some mayo & tuna for breakfast! haha! My sandwhich isn't that delicious but it's quite acceptable! (matulon ra pd biya) I rushed for school cause I have to meet my 'gaw' (Pabe) there! My mama played a movie early in the morning, and guess what, I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY is the title (ug sadihang ka relate ko) hahaha! emo (/^). Back to the story, I met 'gaw' at the school at around 9:30 am, then we did out thing! (I can't write the details anymore because it was sooo tiring jod, grabehh to nga lakaw)... Afterwards we headed to Gaisano to feed our growling stomachs, haha =)) She told me that she has to get her F.D. from Kate so I decided to come with her because Kate's house is just a walking distance from Gaisano. Along the way I was really suffering because the sun was just sooooo hot! (i miss my sun sim) Well at Kate's place the three of us enjoyed, I bought some DVD's so we had a movie marathon. We ate bunch of foods and we talked about a lot of stuffs. (as usual) And I was sooo thankful to both of them because they've been a help for me not to be S A D!
Despite of that loaded day, never was there a moment that my friends name slipped away from my mind=( That's how special my friend is to me. Oh, I'm still gonna figure out the next coming days on how to escape from this sadness. hahaha! asss in jud.. Maybe I'll read and read, more on Paulo Coelho's THE ALCHEMIST, or watch a lot of movies, I already made a list. hahaha :D And forgive me, I might not be able to write in here tomorrow and for the next coming days, because my PC isn't cooperating so well. i think the monitor's broken (like my heart) hahaha. jokesss!, & I still need a replacement because i'm not comfortable using this anymore :(( oh no, not until I found some money! hahah, geh lng, madato lang ko!! hahah! =)) lol.
I love my God so much :) Salamat Lord for giving me my family, my friends, these things, and "you know who" .. weee :)
This is totally insane! I didn't know apil pod diay siya sa rule, i thought this is just for me and myself ! How could this be possible ? And who warned my friend? haha! ooohhkay, amazing, so i can't ask my friend anymore to leave comments on my blog posts, and profiles.. That's ok though! as what the movie said, "time is meaningless when your inlove" but i'm not saying i am. hahah! OMG! hahah., Iv'e been addicted to movies this past days, because I've got nothing else to do. I am getting excited about my life, i don't know what are the things God has in store for me! Just like whatJeremiah 29:11 said, For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.I am so thankful to the Lord in everything, in every single detail of my life. And I love HIM more than anything else :) I am so sure of that!
Do you know, wala pa nag 24hours from the time we started the cut off :) but i'm dying. hehe. seriously, i miss my friend so much! Good thing I find a way to somehow escape my mind from thinking too much about it. I attended the sports fest, I watched basketball, and cheer a little to our team. And gheeez, I saw my favorite basketball player, who is so A M A Z I N G. He played so well, he scored a lot of points, and they were the champion. No wonder he's my favorite! hahaha. Pero actually, I can't help from thinking how my friend is doing. I seriously hope my friend's first day went fine :) That's all for now.. Byeeee =))
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